Now that i am looking for it (Peace), I will find it sooner or later.

What we fail to understand is that today or tomorrow is not in the fate of yesterday. Its NOW and now is the right time to think about what we hold in ourself. What we create is what we are capable of and how we want our tomorrow as.

If today i create chaos somewhere (may be jsut among three people sitting with me in a coffee shop somewhere) instead of pacifying a debate- then chaos will be my reward tomorrow. That is how simply the universe works.

The outer world (in comparision to my inner world) is much easier to live with.The chaos in my inner world spills out on my outer world affecting the people i love or hate or have no feeling for. And when i feel tortured or unaccepted i shout and take away the energy from the soul of the person sitting next to me, I don't care who that person might be.

But this is how i feel and react when chaos falls on me and i fall apart like peices of glass taking with me may be those three people and those three people taking with them their families and so on untill a whole nation breaks into pieces of land, debates, arguments and chaos wins over my body and soul and dances over a whole nation like a tornado.

I am dead and have no relevance in the outer world now but the mess that i left there is far bigger than me to repent for. I took away souls of those i loved and hated. Do i feel better that i took souls of those i hated? Yes, the delight is there but its momentarily and it vanishes much before you can even relish it leaving behind guilt, sorrow, anger, pain and feelings that you should only experience in hell. Which is what i am feeling now.

Moral: Pacify every debate at every corner you see, you might be preventing a major war in some other part of the world. Everyone in the world is joined to the other with a link that no one can really explain. We are all part of a big spider web and if i move and shake myself, others close to me will get affected but the effects might be seen far from my place in the web, may be a link is broken from my side and the spider web falls apart.

Love All, Bless All.

Words are the most powerful thing and voice is the greatest gift from god (after eyes ofcourse). Pls use it wisely.

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Anupriya Srivastava

Dated: 8th Jan 2010